So this post is extremely personal.
I'm in the middle of figuring out what to do with a relationship that I am discontent with. I have so much love for my current partner. Our connection is undeniable and there is so much potential with our love. However I find myself over thinking things and giving so much of myself with out much in return. It is a long distance relationship. Those challenges are usually met with open and constant communication. That just isn't happening, many external circumstances(storms, lost phones, no power) have put barriers between us and our digital lines of communication. Ultimately I just need to be real with myself and know that the real problem lies with my partner. I am just not a priority. He is just a poor communicator. I am not emotionally needy. In the first month of our unplanned long distance relationship he reached out to me less the 10 tens via phone, email or social media. So many messages were left with no reply. So many phone calls never returned. I kept my phone as a constant companion I the hopes that they would reach out to me. Some many times I was left in the dark. I was scolded for tracking them down at their work phone after almost 2 weeks of absolutely no communication.
I do not feel like I am expecting much, a message here or there wishing me a good day or night, a phone call every few days just to hear their voice. It's simple I just want to be with someone e who wants to hear about my day and is excited to tell me about theirs.
I know I deserve nothing less.
How to proceed forward is where I am at right now.
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